A poem to a picture

The moment everything started to begin, 

it was heavy and I wasn’t sure where I was headed 

but I knew the one who was in control 

of the waves of the sea 

All my life I had fought against who I knew I was supposed to be 

Yet I ran away out of fear, opinions, rejection & crippling anxiety 

On the darkest night, when I couldn’t breathe

I encountered a light that made the darkness flee 

I was drowning, thinking what is the point of anything, 

Yet through all my brokenness 

ignited a hope that changed the course of my entire life, - eternally

I didn’t know it yet, but it helped me keep going. 

I look back to this & think

Why did I ever run? 

Why did I ever wait? 

Why did I fight against true love

Did I believe in freedom ? 

Could I really be set free from all of my burdens & chains? 

How did I not know? 

How could I not see? 

The constant pure & holy pursuing love that always was fighting for me, 

even when I did not understand, 

even if I pushed it all away, 

right on time always, there Jesus was to rescue me.  

Through the doubts He broke me out 

He set me apart and is doing a new thing now 

I let go of all of me and that’s where I gained all of you. All of you is all the love and peace and joy I was searching for anything besides you was only ever temporary. 

These fleeting “pleasures” that would never truly be enough to really change & heal me from all the deeply rooted pain, Yet the hurt, shame & voids you completely washed me clean.

You held every tear, not a second of my life went unnoticed, you’re mending that broken hearted lost soul & you say I’ve always been chosen. 

You call me your own and you don’t shame me for all my mistakes, you heal me, you revive me , you changed my name to saved.  

You are turning things around 

This is the season of Romans 8:28 🤍

Thank you for your goodness and mercy and presence in all & everything ♾️